Moving on in some areas .....

Later in the day that I wrote the blog last week we got notice that our boat had sold. That came with really mixed emotions. Intellectually and logically is was absolutely the right thing to do and we're relieved it went quickly. Emotionally, it was the last nail in the coffin of our old life, it was a serious meltdown point for me and Mark and I were very subdued the next day. We've all made major changes to our lives and sometimes those changes are upsetting, may leave us angry and with some regrets, but the difference is we MADE those choices. When a major change that wasn't our choice is forced upon us it leaves you with a feeling of helplessness, the inability to control so many aspects of your life. You feel like you're at the center of a whirlwind, everything is whizzing around you but you can't grab hold of anything. Now the boat has sold, the physical link with our old life is well and truly broken. The brilliant friends we made have carried us through the trauma and they will stay with us. Going forward .... here's Marks new house ...

now our efforts have to be looking forward, workmen making a mess and paint brushes ... making a home is the new challenge.

Mark is still in Pinderfields, he's spending some time each day up in his chair, but still spending way too much time in bed still in pain. His Consultant has finally written a referral to a consultant in Birmingham, but it could take another week before it actually goes. Nothing moves very quickly in the NHS!! While he is up he has been able to do some exercising in the gym but has to be careful with some movements that set off the severe pain. His consultant still thinks it's in his head we're convinced of that. The Physio's have seen it happen now so they know it's clearly physical not mental. He's fed up not being able to get to the house and get on with things, he's frustrated being constantly in pain and he's angry he can't get on with his life, but amazingly his spirits aren't too bad considering. I don't think I would be handling it as well. Having said that, Mark messaged me this morning saying if it was the other way round he wouldn't be handling things very well and would probably be living in a box!!