Sometimes there are gaps of a few days between blogs, because some days it's difficult to describe the emotions we wade through trying to come to terms with the enormity of what's happened. How our lives have changed and will continue to change. Aspirations and dreams suddenly derailed. Yes we know our lives will continue, along different paths, finding a new reality and future. But some days that new reality hits us like a run away train, it pulls us up short and we struggle to see a clear path ahead. There is light at the end of the tunnel, but the truth is the tunnel is still part of the journey and the utter blackness of that tunnel sometimes overwhelms. Today was one of those days. We fill in yet another 'form' having to highlight what difficulties we face and we realise the way ahead is going to get even more difficult in the short term before it gets easier.
Normally I only write when I am not feeling emotionally stripped, I like to keep a positive outlook, I am the eternal optimist. However optimism is often a cloak to disguise the fact that the reality we are currently living in is not something we can cope with. Tomorrow will be better.
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